Self Portrait | No. 25



Self Portrait | No.24

I noticed the other day how pretty the sunlight is when it streams in through our bathroom window, early in the morning. Of course, the only obvious thought once discovering this is; why not bring the camera into the bathroom and take a photo of myself sitting on the toilet? Haha…Well in reality that’s the only way I could hold the camera steady and get my reflection.

PS: I am not actually “going” to the toilet while taking this shot.

The obstacle:

Being ok with photographing myself first thing in the morning, a-la-natur-al and sleepy eyed.

The result:

Although my face doesn’t show it, I was quite happy.

That light!




Self Portrait: Day 21 // 4:45pm

We are God’s masterpiece. He has created us anew in Christ Jesus, so we can do the good things he planned for us long ago. (Ephesians 2:10 NLT)


I have struggled with low self-esteem over the years, and at times it still shows up in certain areas of my personhood.

Whenever I find that I am getting a bit too hard on myself and putting myself down or doubting who God says I am, I find that coming to the word is a great help and boost for me. As I turn through the pages, God breathes his life and truth over me and I am reminded who I really am…that I matter. That I have a role to play in this life, and it is important.

Poetry in motion.

Ephesians 2 tells us we are God’s masterpiece. This means that our abilities, talents, personalities, experiences and heart are needed… you are wanted! You have value and worth!! It also means that we should listen and accept what God has to say about us first and foremost.

Isn’t it funny how all the good stuff we know to be true can be instantly erased when someone says just one negative thing about us? If we allow it to, this negativity can eat away at us until we start to believe the lies and then eventually, live out the lie.

This is why it is so important to know who you are, and who’s you are. You must know that you have a purpose to play, and it is significant.

As Oscar Wilde so poignantly puts it –

“Be yourself, everyone else is already taken”

*What role do you have in your family, church, workplace and life? How are you going to fulfil your role? What are you doing to lift your self-esteem?

Please share in the conversation, I would love to hear your thoughts, advice and experiences on this topic.

Amanda x

Self Portrait: Day 20 // 8:45pm


Excuses, excuses!

I went into this personal photography project with three main goals:

  • To challenge myself creatively
  • To push the boundaries of my photography
  • To get outside of my comfort zone

And after officially hitting ninety-seven days into my self-portrait project I can’t help but feel pretty disappointed at the fact that I have not stuck with it, consistently.


I am so far behind in reaching my goal; that in all honesty a part of me thinks it might be best to just call it a day.

The harsh truth is that the only thing stopping me from achieving my goal right now…is me.

And like many occasions before, I have gone into something with the greatest of intentions but the execution of it is where I often stumble.

Why is that?

Quite simply, it’s because I have given myself excuse after excuse as to why I shouldn’t just get off my butt and just do it!

  • My hair looks bad today
  • I’m too tired
  • It’s too cold outside
  • I’m not good enough to come up with a photo worth posting
  • No one even cares if I post another photo again or not anyway

The list could go on, but I won’t bore you.

My point.

I have allowed excuses and insecurities to overshadow my ability to achieve.

(With perhaps a dash of laziness in there too).

The very reason I started this project in the first place has turned out to be the same reason as to why I want to quit!

I have been my own worst enemy.

So, with this revelation I could either continue to let this same defeatists attitude win like it has so many times before.


Perhaps this time I can do something different?


I think I like the sound of the latter.

And what better time to start then now?!

Ok, so I may not have posted over ninety photos of myself like I should have by this stage of the project, but if I really look at it from the other side; the process so far has in-fact challenged me on more levels than I could have ever expected – especially on a personal and spiritual level!

“God, you really do surprise me with the ways in which you speak to me and transform my inner most parts”

And yes, my photography skills have been stretched. I have been using new techniques and camera functions I didn’t know existed; and the imagery I am producing allows me to be creative in a way that expresses who I am as a person and artist.

I am free to be me.

And you know what?

Now that I really think about it – I have actually gone outside my comfort zone!

I’ve had people stare at me as they pass me by on the street. It isn’t every day you see a random person standing with a camera and a tripod striking a pose!

Surely they must think I am super into myself if I am ‘brave’ enough to photograph myself in public?

I care way too much about what others think of me.

Since doing this project – I seem to care less.

And yes, I am photographing elements of myself that are usually kept private.

I am made vulnerable by putting my life and myself on display for anyone and everyone to see.

But that’s ok.

Because today…

I am one step closer to reaching my goal.

And that is a heck of a lot closer than I was yesterday.

Do you struggle with certain insecurities that stop you from achieving your goals and desires? Perhaps you are like me and you find yourself making excuse after excuse?

I encourage you to try writing out a list similar to what I did, of five common excuses or insecurities that have you convinced that you can’t achieve something you have desired to do; then taking that list, reverse it with reasons why you can!

Perhaps if you are open enough you can share this list or your experiences too? Let’s share in the conversation.

Amanda x

Self Portrait: Day 19 // 11:05am

From Your precepts I get understanding; therefore I hate every false way. Your word is a lamp to my feet, and a light to my path – Psalm 119:104-105